26 November 2011

She wears the trouser


Todays blog post comes to you from the depths of my bedroom as i am trying to get rid of old clothes, clothes i don't wear and clothes that have out grown me. This blog has been a great place for me to gain confidence, also seeing other bloggers wearing wonderful and wacky outfits. 
As i was going through my old clothes, which hold a lot of sentimental value( i don't often buy alot of clothes but when i do i actually have to fall in love with that item).  I was going through some pieces, and they actually made me quite upset, i don't often share with people problems i have had with my weight or the fact i wont wear trousers outside the house. If i am honest right now is the happiest i have been in a long time with the way i look, it has taken me a good 9 months to gain this confidence back. In 2010 i was so ill with asthma and lung problems that i think i gain around 2 stone, from the sheer fact that i was stressed with uni, home life and the fact that i love chocolate,  this came to a massive realization when my ex turned around to me and said (after not seeing me for 4 months) "i think you have got really fat" believe me at that moment in time i have never felt so much hate for 1 person, no one has ever directly said that to me and you know what 2 weeks later that relationship was over but words can scar immensely.  I stopped wearing trousers and i only ever wore tights/leggings and dressers because i thought i looked like a whale in trousers. But now i feel its safe to go back to jeans and trousers hehe
I am still a size 12-14 but i am happy, mainly for work i wear dresses and tights but today i thought lets wear trousers and a nice top. Sometimes is the simplest thing that can cheer you up and make you grateful. But one thing i have learnt from the last 9 months...i still love chocolate. 
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  1. as said on twitter, what a horrible boy and flippant comment to make. totally know what you mean about words scarring and play on your mind. But you're doing so well and that just shows your ex what a fool he was!
    as for the last comment, don't we all (daydreams about chocolate...)
    http://jaymieocallaghan.blogspot.com/
    xxx

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  2. You're literally one of my favourite bloggers in the entire world and this post scared me a little cause it's exactly how I feel about trousers and jeans. I don't own a single pair of jeans and haven't done since I was 16 and I only weird joggers to the gym - and even then I feel incredibly self conscious - and that's it. Well done you for finding that confidence. (:

    www.colours-and-curves.blogspot.com

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  3. complete admiration for you writing this post, ella! what an absolute twit that ex sounds, just be glad you've seen the back of him. poor you going through this whole dramz, great to hear you're much happier now!

    abs love your top&background too!

    ramz and the flock x

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  4. aww thank you lovelies for your kind words i only own 1 pair of jeans, but i am determined to add to the trouser collection for the winter months :) its good to know that i am not the only female that feels uncomfortable in trousers...xxxx

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  5. If that guy is reading this he can take the following advice: suck my size 12 left one you mug!

    As a fellow size 12, it pisses me right off when I hear people demeaning my size. I've got an arse, tits, hips and a jelly belly - it doesn't mean I deserve abuse! I've been a size 8/10 before and I looked absolutely vile and felt even worse. You're beautiful, Ella. Don't listen to anyone that tells you otherwise because they're blind to the fact that you're one of the most gorgeous ladies on this planet!

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  6. literally can't believe someone could say that to someone.. YOU ARE PERFECT! everyone is perfect. so don't listen to a word he said and it's so good your feeling so confident recently! xxxxx

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  7. Think I really dislike your ex >.< You are just beautiful. I love your style and the way you are able to show your amazing peronality through this blog.
    Love Marta xxx

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  8. Your well shot of that git. You always look lovely whatever you wear me dear. I am very conscience of my weight at the moment. I wish I could wear crop tops without having to put a cami underneath to hide the flab. I love the shirts that are in the shops that are long at the back and short at the front, But I look just silly in them. I also get sick of shops not having the bigger sizes in.

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  9. ella, no! you are gorgeous and so so talented! i know what you mean though about words scarring, for some reason we only ever remember the bad things people say, never the good stuff. you can always look back over your blog though to remind yourself of all the nice things!

    start remembering the good stuff :-D xxx

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  10. Wow, talk about complete lack of humanity and tact.

    That you can now say you're happy in your own skin is not only a testament to your own strength of character but a wonderful reminder to a lot of people who lack confidence in themselves for whatever reason, that it's possible to be happy with yourself for who you are.

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  11. your wardrobe is so lovely and colourful! You always look amazing in your posts don't let any stupid cow bring you down <3
    xoxo
    Ellie

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  12. What a horrible person. I had a friend who's boyfriend at the time told her she was fat (she wasn't, she was a curvy 8... tiny!) but I thought that was disgusting of someone in that situation to say something like that. I'm glad you're feeling more confident than you did a year ago. Also, five years ago when I was depressed I put on a lot of weight and I know what you're going through. I never got back to the size I used to be, but I'm happier now, and I'm comfortable (well, most of the time!) with myself. Lots of love.

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  13. What an idiot. I'm glad you broke up with someone as vain as that. I understand what you mean about the trousers, with me it's the opposite, I wear nothing to baggy clothes andd trousers because skirts and dresses I think make me look big. I admire you for your confidence (and personality). Keep it up girl, you are beautiful.

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  14. Oh, you go girl. What a jerk he must have been to say that to you! You're stunning the way you are and have such a beautiful face (not to sound creepy or anything, hahahha).

    x Michelle | thefeatherden.net

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  15. Um I'm sorry but your ex sounds like a complete and utter TWAT. I would smack that boy hard! I am so glad that you're happy now though and you didn't let his words affect you in any dangerous way. You're very strong and brave to have come out of that with a smile!

    xxx

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  16. That is terrible. I don't know why people feel the need to put others down! Its not right and theres absolutely no need for it. At least you away from him now and you're happy :) I think you look great! x

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  17. What a horrible rude thing for your ex to throw in your face! I've had "you're fat" comments to my face as well, but I'm sure it was different coming from your ex. Personally, I think you are lovely.
    It's great though that you are learning to be confident again. I love chocolate too, haha.
    Love that top, by the way!!

    xxLeanna

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  18. The good thing about chocolate is that it never cheats on you and is always there for you when you need it! Boys...not do much.

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  19. Wow he actually said that to you? What a horrible person!

    I'm glad you're gaining your confidence back though. I've recently started wearing jeans again and short tops which I haven't done for years and there are some really nice ones out there! I bought a teal coloured pair a few weeks ago and I'm in love!

    Lisamello xx

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