It has been a rather odd 8 months and can i just tell you how important those few months have been to my heart. Anyone who has been following me for a while would know that i had a pretty rough break up at the start of 2011, my blog has been such a vital part of the process of healing the breaks in my heart. I spent two long years with someone who I basically didn’t really know at all, it even feels weird now to think about him and the fact that we were once together, i feel more me now, if that makes any sense?
If you were to tell me in march 2011 that in 8 months time i would still be in london working a full-time job i would of laughed at you, all my plans and paths i had made for myself at the start of the year totally fell through. I think i had forgotten that paths can change and so can people for the good or the bad.
But here I am, i really didn’t realise how strong i could be & how little i could care for that person that i once held so dear. A lot of opportunities have popped up and i have let a lot go, but i need to start telling myself that yes i am capable, so i think i am going to make a little pack with myself and my readers to grab every opportunity.
I often find myself asking the question, would i have been happy staying in that relationship 8 months on, and i know now that the answer is a definite no, i feel a sense of not knowing what will happen in the next 8 months exciting, I now know that its ok to be on my own and not to worry about others. The strength of my family is so important and as cheesy as it sounds so is the support from my readers…. so thank you.
I have discovered so many strong and independent woman across the blogging world (and in real life) that i don’t feel like a girl holding onto someone else’s dreams or demands anymore, i feel finally that i can pave my own path and lay down bricks and cobbles in any direction i want to go. Rather than feeling incapable i feel inspired.
You're such a beautiful person inside and out, I think that you're mature well beyond your age and clearly a far stronger person than me 🙂 Keep your chin up and your woes down.
aww thank you for your wonderful words 🙂 i was a little nervous about writing something so personal but that is the sweetest thing anyone has said to me thank you and i am sure you are just as strong 🙂 xxxxx
Such a wonderful post because it's so heartfelt and honest. Life can change so dramatically and so quickly and you just have to embrace the opportunities thrown at you like you have. Things are going to continue to get bigger and better for you and one day you'll look back on the things that upset you and they'll seem like a tiny, unimportant speck in the scheme of things.
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very well said, it's very refreshing to hear someone extremely positive towards their career
You're very brave about posting about how you feel in your life, and I'm glad that you're proud of yourself and your actions. I'm at a low point right now, but I feel that I don't want to post about it because other people don't want to read about it, if you know what I mean. But it makes me feel inspired that you can, and that you've been through something so terrible but have now almost come out the other side. I hope things just keep getting better for you! Well done about the job by the way!
You'll still realise yr dreams, it's just a bump in the road, you'll get their eventually. I'm sure of it, cause I think you're not the kind of person who gives up so easily!
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You're so genuine Ella, this post has really inspired me. I'm so glad that you've come through it all stronger and better off 🙂 xx
This is such a lovely and honest post. You sound like you have come so far and you are really talented 🙂 X
Really lovely honest post Ella. It's funny how things change. Sometimes looking back at times in your life it feels like looking at someone elses, but it moulded you into who you are now, and I don't think you would, or should change that.
Penny x
Life is a journey that must be traveled. Thank you ever so much for sharing. How was your 1st day?
One day you will find that special someone and you will be very happy and I agree that it's better to be alone than in a bad relationship 🙂 xx
Life is what you make it and you can make anything possible within your life <3. I work in a very similar job to yours Ella, and being in art lessons and its such a great learning curve & you get so much from the kids too!! I bet the kids will love your creativity! Your Blog is really inspiring- made me want to start blogging!. Your Art & Illustration work is amazing!! X