8 June 2013

the pursuit of happiness



I recently watch a program on the bbc called "what artists do all day" and there was this one artist on there i think her name was cornelia parker, and she talked about having a skill that was a blessing a gift, that she's been let into something and to be grateful for it. I have been feeling a lot like this recently. The more I draw the more I feel like me, and I guess not many people get to truly experience that. That really does make me feel so grateful. Even if the pain of drawing is evident in my swollen hand and battered fingers from the pencil rubbing to the point of bleeding, but that doesn't matter its the process we have to go through to create something of worth.

 It seems to still be my only refuge, my only thinking time, my Only. I spend long hours drawing as it seems to be the only way I de-stress and figure things out, its such a wonderful place to be when the drawing is going right, and late nights sat at my desk with a good historical programme on (total geek) illuminated by my lamp just painting whilst the rest of the house sleeps allows me to just focus on what i'm good at, thats not easy for me to say, I don't often say I am good at drawing, I think because I am my own worst critique I can't think of one painting that I have truly been happy with, I think its my Pursuit of happiness. 

You guys have been so wonderfully support recently that I think it has given a great boost of confidence to just keep going. Even though my days  recently have been filled with stressful uncertainty, it has been a wonderful escape, focusing on something simple and beautiful and really when you think about it what more can you ask from life?

I am currently painting cities that I have been to, places that I've never been and may never go, of adventures and people, that hopefully those curious among you will buy and display in there house, one day inspiring someone, as they gaze at it, to find that certain building or explore that certain street, I feel that through some intricate detailing in the paintings, that the wonder I get from putting my soul into the art that some how, they find some sort of de-stress and refuge. I find that it is a cycle, and being able to share that with you all is wonderful, I think I have used the word wonderful too many times but who cares?! I certainly don't and if I am honest it shouldn't be about that. 



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10 comments

  1. love you soo much. I'm happy that i found your blog. You write so smart things, love your art and approach to life. You inspire me so much.

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  2. Ella, your posts are so inspirational. I drink in your words and soak up your talents and very much wish that, one day, I'll be able to do something, anything, half as well as you illustrate. Of course, it is most unlikely, but I guess we live to dream, and that's all I can really do.

    And I adore this painting. Just simply ADORE it. New York is an absolute favourite place of mine, my secret home, the place that, if things were different - if I could live that far away from home, and bloody get over my darn fear of flying - I'd live in, in a heartbeat. It is the only city I have ever felt truly, 100% comfortable in, and I do so hope to visit it again. Until then, I'm happy to marvel at this image of yours and just imagine :)

    Tori

    xx

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  3. Your drawings are wonderful :)

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  4. i love your new cities thing! it's something that's been done quite a bit over the years, but i really love your take on it as it's very much your style and so ..dynamic!

    i love that feeling of being so totally immersed in something you love, it's like you go into your own world and for that time nothing else matters.

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  5. I love Cornelia Parker! Her play on light and shadows is fascinating. I really recommend looking her up if you haven't already.

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  6. I absolutely love the nyc piece and if/when it becomes available in your shop will make a definite purchase!

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  7. This is a truly beautiful post. You are so inspiring, your paintings are wonderful, and I genuinely hope that I find that I have a talent that is as true as yours, one day xx

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  8. This makes me happy cause I can relate. My biggest problem is that regardless of knowing that drawing puts me in a happier place I struggle to draw because of fear and insecurity. But when I do, when I get into the zone life seems right. I forget all my fears and self doubt and I just enjoy.

    Thanks for sharing this! I cant wait to see more of your city paintings!

    xoxo,
    Avo (www.avoslife.com)

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  9. This post is so honest and warmful. I feel like I can understand you, in my ways. I am in a critical part of my life where I have to choose or choose to combine different elements and all of them needs energy and time : writting for children, being a librarian, upgrade graphic skills, being an illustrator. I draw since I am young but because of life and what everyone told me, I stopped, thinking it wouldnt help my life. But when I am drawing or writting, I feel peace inside, I feel like I belong.

    Thanks for this thoughtful post and sorry for my english, I speak french (Quebec, Canada).

    Patricia xox
    http://leslistesdolive.blogspot.ca

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  10. I love reading about your love for drawing - sadly it's never come easily to me and art was always one of my most dreaded subjects at school. But it was only because I struggled so much with it. So to read about our love for it is truly inspiring, and I'm so glad drawing has this beautiful effect on your life xxx

    http://reasoningmysoul.blogspot.co.uk/

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