29 July 2015

What do artists do all day : Live in the moment


Some days are long and drawn and out, filled with self doubt, others days I work my bum off on new creations and ideas, days where I am glued to my chair emailing, painting and generally trying to work my magic are the days that go the quickest. With my ripped jeans on and a Breton top I do my best to get lost in other peoples creative commissions be it a header or a family portrait. But the days I truly love are the ones where I feel myself and my work developing. I feel in recent years I have very mixed opinions on my work and journey, I am known for my illustrations amongst a select few readers and Instagram followers and that's great, social media has allowed me to do this full time. But I want to take my work further and develop my style, I am ambitious to an extent but am very aware and judgmental of myself and as they say you can be your own worst critic and this is really hard when its a passion and your life. it's about getting it right not always first time but trying and really pushing what you do without worrying too much about everything.

When it comes to my work, I won't dare put it out in the world until it is perfect, not sure if thats the Virgo in me or just an annoying trait, but you're only as good as your last piece of work, well that's what my sculptor tutor use to say to me at Uni. I guess that's what pushes us as artists and creatives or even entrepreneurs and bloggers we can't rest on our laurels. There is always something going on, someone succeeding, someone doing the hardest to be the best. It's a tough world and sometimes its really bloody hard, the last two weeks it has been super tempting to walk back into a a day job, applying for something because I miss being around people, earning a safe and steady income, I'm at the stage in my life where I am thinking beyond myself and thinking about security and future. Freelance Life isn't the safest of options if like me you get anxious about the littlest thing. But for some reason my stubbornness and determination stopped me from emailing those Cv's at that current moment, I sat back and thought about those four long years teaching after I graduated five years ago, and every moment I taught, every lunch break, free lesson in that job I dreamed of drawing, painting and creating work, the last few months, with the ease of working for myself I had become lazy and unambitious, I hate to say it but I lost my spark. I'm not saying it has fully come back but my drive and push for wanting to create and work has reappeared and couldn't come at a better time. 


Sometimes it just happens for no reason at all, our want to create, share and develop just leaves us with no warning. If this teaches us one thing it is to make the most of the now, right now I have three completed paintings staring at me waiting to be scanned in and shared with the world, I have had some great feedback on my instagram and I've drunk enough tea that my soul is in a good place, whilst I feel less guilty for not venturing to the gym since Saturday, my bills have been paid for the next month so my sole focus for today is painting, developing my style and finding the good in the everyday whilst trying to lower my anxieties. I'm making the most of what I have to work with today.

HOPE YOU'VE HAD A LOVELY DAY
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ELLA

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26 July 2015

Just a thought...

Breton tee Zara - similar  | Levi shorts - Similar | Vintage Belt

This week has been a tough old one, seen myself stressing over money, people and things more then I probably should or whats good for me. But it has to be done I suppose. I have decided that I really need to work harder and boost my Portfolio which I have been working on sorting today editing and scanning in new work alongside retouching old pieces. It's been great to go through old work and see how far I've come but where exactly I want to aim for, needing to push myself more is something I struggle with. Finding the motivation to work when you're a Freelancer is something I have been dealing with these past few weeks, especially when you have so much going on around you that's not so fun. I'm getting there and planning a lot of new projects, clients and filling my diary up with events and more time for myself which I think is key. I have found surrounding myself with creatives and spending time boosting the positive thoughts is a good way of staying on track. I often find myself comparing what I do with others always forgetting everyone is walking their own path, at different speeds and with different obstacles in their way. Social media has made it very easy too see the great side of things and often hiding the struggles and hard work that goes on behind closed doors. 
So maybe being hard on ourselves is pretty much a waste of energy and we should be focusing our attention (I speak for myself) on putting positivity into our work and sharing good thoughts with others. 

So for the week ahead I have set myself a few tasks, goals and thoughts to encourage self development and positivity. 

- Work/live in the moment 
- Create one piece of work for me
- Smile more. 
- Organise time better
- Spend time with people who are positive
- Do not compare yourself
- Switch your phone off
- Doodle
- spend less on things I don't need
- Drink more tea that always helps

I am loving everything about today's work outfit, feel a little bit like Mr Smee from Peter Pan cross between festival Kate Moss, its a simple everyday look for me when I'm working, I rarely wear trousers when I'm at home, I have so many pairs of ripped levi shorts that I throw on and a simple tee. You can see I'm a little obsessed with stripes, so I no longer fight it and if I can find one for £3 in the Zara sale then I'm going to nab that bad boy regardless of having a million similar tees, I know it will be loved.

HOPE YOU'VE HAD A LOVELY DAY
X
ELLA

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24 July 2015

simple stripes


When putting together this blog post, I didn't realize how many things around me that we snapped happened to be red, how very odd. After we had drunk our coffee we wandered around a few little streets streets off Columbia Road and discovered some pretty colourful doors. 

I was wearing a pretty casual outfit to hang out with Paige, who can I just say takes the best photos. I have recently been asked by rather a few Instgram followers where I get my striped Breton tops from, this one is a steal from Primark for a grand total of fifty pence, yep nabbed it in a sale about two years ago. I will how ever create a little vlog once my Youtube has finally been sorted and set up of my favorite Breton tops and where to go to grab a bargain


Primark Breton top | H&M ripped Jeans | H&M Duster jacket | Office brown leather boots- similar - Photos by Paige 

Now I love my H&M duster style jacket but my Lord does it crease something terrible, it has been iron nothing screams dragged through a bush backwards like a creased item of clothing. As we were snapping away we befriend a lovely little kitty who was a little dusty and just rubbed himself against me constantly affectionate little thing. The weather held out and we had a really lovely afternoon. Today it self has been a horrible stress, that I would like to forget, but alas one must keep working and pushing themselves.


HOPE YOU'VE HAD A LOVELY DAY
X
ELLA

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23 July 2015

East London


Some days as a freelancer are great, being able to take my work with me and draw where ever I want are the perks of my profession so I decided a little impromptu drawing session with Paige was just what i needed. We headed to Hawkhurst Vault to set up camp and get doodling, I had a wedding commission to finish and Paige worked on some new printables. So we sat chatted, painted and doodled for a good few hours.We devoured a rather gooey chocolate brownie and enjoyed a few cups of tea and the occasional Latte.

On our way to the coffee shop we wandered through Spitalfields, every Thursday it is kitted out with some of the best Antiques around, I do love snapping photos but it is sadly over priced, luring those tourists in. I did however spot a basket of cute 1970's leather booties for Teddy but I did snap any up because I have no idea what size he would be, sucha shame they were beautiful. 

I still love wandering around this part of the city, even though I have spent endless hours walking the streets, shopping, eating and partying in this part of town. I love discovering new graffiti and new shops that pop up one month and then disappear. Its always great walking about town with a fellow creative that sees opportunities to snap photos and share ideas. 

HOPE YOU'VE HAD A LOVELY DAY
X
ELLA

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22 July 2015

Race for life round up


So its been a few weeks since I completed my Race for Life feels like it was so long ago now. On the day I was so nervous as I was running it alone with the support of my sister, little Nephew and my Mother on the side lines cheering me on. It was a pretty damp day which does no favors for my chest and my Asthma, but the atmosphere was great and we did a little work out before hand all together. It was nice to all different woman giving it a go, I didn't go into the first set of runners I decided to stay in the middle and head out with the joggers which I think was a good decision. I wasn't aware before hand that we would be divided up. 

The course was rather bumpy but we were running outdoors in a park its to be expected I guess, I hadn't run properly outside in about a month so I was constantly looking at the ground worrying I would fall over a root or a small child. 

I really enjoyed myself surprisingly, I ran it in 33 minutes which for me is a personal best and I was pretty over the moon when I crossed that finishing line and gave Teddy a big squeeze. We had kitted him out in a little outfit that was too cute.

So you can imagine when I got home I ran the biggest bubble bath (after stretching i promise)  and grabbed all my LUSH products and had a nice chilled bath was seriously the best. I would seriously recommend to women wanting to get started to consider running with Race for Life  really friendly atmosphere and definitely eases you into running.

HOPE YOU'RE HAVING A WONDERFUL DAY
X
ELLA

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21 July 2015

Original Paintings


I've been working quietly on new pieces for the shop, there are a lot of new Original pieces available which I am really pleased about. I am currently juggling some lovely commissions at the moment which is great and I'm working with some fab clients which makes me job so wonderful. Its been great for my confidence and my portfolio. I would love to show you some more behind the scenes and create a few little vlogs...watch this space.

HOPE YOU'RE HAVING A GREAT DAY
X
ELLA

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20 July 2015

Dark Denim Dungarees


H&M Dungarees Similar | Accessorize handbag similar | Anthropologie Trench coat | New Look Musky pink top 

I kept my outfit for the Audrey Hepburn exhibition pretty simple, I might the best purchase of the year the other day whilst waiting for Paige, I popped into H&M on Oxford street whilst the sale was on and riffled through the sale rack to find two size 10 pairs of Dungarees unsure if they might fit I snapped up a pair. I always do that thing when I get home I head straight to the bathroom and try on the clothes like a crazy lady, so when they actually fitted I was a little bit excited, I love the fact they fit my legs properly, I have tiny legs and I always have to roll the bottoms up a million times. In my head I felt very Alexa Chung but in reality sadly not haha! Since having my hair cut last week it no longer does what I ask of it and its a wavy messy constantly, so that morning was no different and I just embraced the mess.

HOPE YOU'RE HAVING A GREAT DAY
X
ELLA

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19 July 2015

Audrey Hepburn Portrait of an Icon : National Portrait Gallery

 
I had the privilege of being invited along to see the Audrey Hepburn Portrait of an Icon  photographic exhibition before the National Gallery opened their doors to the public on Friday. I took the Mother who has been a massive fan along with me for many years, I actually based my gcse textile design work on Audrey, so you can imagine how super excited I was.

The curators of the exhibition Helen Trompeteler and Terrance Pepper gave us a wonderful introduction and talk, all about setting up the exhibition and how they selected the photos that would be exhibited. They faced the challenge of sharing photos that people may not have seen before, going to America and having to choose the photos from over 5,000 images of Audrey, I imagine that was a pretty tough job (maybe not the trip part) I loved how the rooms went through her life, starting with early photos to her dancing career in London, I really loved the mix of cinematic coloured film images to the black and white photos by all the top photographers at the time.
 

The space felt perfect for the exhibition, I thought that the choice of imagery and the amount was perfect and nicely laid out. There was a great mix of Audrey the film star, the Humanitarian and the person. I adore the photo of Audrey by Cecil Beeton with her dog in the front basket of her bike, the colours and composition were perfect. 

I loved the wall of magazine covers, ranging from her first to later images, Massive fan of a good aesthetically pleasing wall space. I would really recommend popping along early as the tickets I think have mainly sold out, when we left the cues were rather long already and it was only 10 am. If you are a lover of cute animals aswell its for you. You can see a little tour here with the curator Helen Trompeteler. 

I couldn't help myself in the gift shop, I picked up the large breakfast at Tiffany film poster for an amazing fiver along with a few other beautiful Audrey inspired goodies. 

HOPE YOU'VE  HAD A FAB WEEKEND
X
ELLA

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17 July 2015

Boohoo Christmas press day and treats

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16 July 2015

London Zoo


I hadn't been back to London Zoo for probably around 15 years, I was practically there every weekend as a child, so when we stayed locally going to the Zoo was top of our list. So we started our big wild animal adventure with a nice big latte and a survey of the map to make sure we didn't miss any of the animals. Both of us were pretty eager to see the penguins and giraffes, you can imagine our little faces. 

They had totally changed the Zoo with the exception of a few of the old buildings, I did feel like a child again getting excited over the animals. I have to say my favorite was the monkey enclosure where you walk into a large space where the monkeys are roaming, jumping and hanging around, they were just too cute. Can't really say the same for the the spider enclosure, you could walk through a room with deadly spiders hanging in webs around your head, I'm not scared of spiders I just don't like them near me, so when J wanted to wander through I wasn't overly keen, I think the face says it all.  I was suffering with the worlds biggest migraine so I was treated to a big old hot chocolate with marshmallows which gave me a boost of energy as we wandered on to the Giraffe enclosure, they created a balcony so you're at head height with the Giraffe my inner child was loving life at that moment. We sat and I doodled the giraffes for a little while giving us a much needed break, you don't realise how much you have to walk about, I did draw a pretty bad giraffe it was a miss match of all three of the Giraffe wandering around, defiantly not the best creation. We had such a wonderful day and I would definitely recommend giving the Zoo a visit I wasn't disappointment and they've definitely up their game since I was last there as a child.

HOPE YOU'VE HAD A FAB DAY
X
ELLA




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