Quarter life crisis?

Life is a little bit odd at times right? Well this year has massively consumed me, I have spent the last few weeks pretty much locked away having time to myself I have had a few breaks from social media, sent orders out, spent my time in the sunshine and ate some tasty things. I also did it without sharing it on Instagram or telling the world what I am upto. It was nice, occasionally anxiety inducing, but at the same time I felt like the pace of blogging, instagraming had run passed me. I’m not in the loop so people will forget about my work and what I do. But I realised there is space in the world for everyone, all creatives. It’s very natural to need a break, I couldn’t fully tell you why I just needed to get away. 

I did once again end up with another guy who was cheating on me, oh yeah Ella you do know how to find them! So I have decided to turn those moments into new work…hello sassy new illustrations! I have decided to take my work in a new and exciting direction and it will be filtered into my blog, instagram and twitter! I feel that I’m on a path and it’s slowly edging towards a few goals that I want to hit and that finally excites me, when I felt lost recently it truly was a struggle to shift my ass outta bed, I wasn’t depressed I can only liken it to feeling lost. My art was boring me, my face had broken out, I wasn’t happy with how I looked and I just lacked drive and passion. I was seeing all this wonderful stuff around me and I was being inspired I just didn’t have the energy in me to go out there and do things and the worst thing was I truly didn’t want to create, didn’t care for it. That’s not like me what so ever but I realised that, that’s OK we can’t all be super efficient and amazing all the time that would just be showing off, so I rode the wave of no inspiration and it dumped me somewhere between OK and inspired and I’m working with that! The last couple weeks have taught me a lot about myself, I have learnt that I’m actually ok, I am in a position where I am doing what I love, I have family and I’m able to create my work, I have a few people who emailed me asking if I was still alive (thanks guys!) and you know what I have decided I want to write and illustrate my own book, yep! that’s what I want to do no idea how but that’s my target and I’m going to give that a whirl!

Also I have learnt that I have a massive love for hoop earring, Anne-Marie’s music, Oatly chocolate milk, massive jumpers and old school style tattoos, believe me somehow they will all feature in future work.  Time away from the busyness of life can give you the chance to definitely reflect on the things you would often by pass and you know what the devils in the detail which I love. 

Is there anything you’ve realised, discovered found out about yourself recently?