31 October 2016

My top Autumnal purchase

World please say hello to my new bottle green Faux leather jacket, one of the priciest jackets I have ever purchased but after having my work featured in the BBC this week I treated myself. I wandered into Zara with the sister and the nephew on the hunt for a jumper i had sen on Beth's Instagram and accidentally stumbled across this and instantly as soon as I clocked it I realised I needed to own it. I ummed and arghed much to my sister's annoyance and Teddy's I popped it back realising that the £59.99 price tag couldn't be justfied at that moment. 

I got the biggest feelings of regret that I hadn't purchased it, as a lover of Zara I'm aware of their quick turn around in store so I had a slight panic that it would disappear forever so I bit the bullet after selling a few items on Depop (you can raid my wardrobe at ellamentsofstyle) I justified it to myself and snapped it up. 

Now don't be fooled Zara online' the photos make the jacket look a lot more shiny then what it actually is in real life, it a nice lined thick faux leather with a detachable faux fur collar which is one of the reasons I purchased this style. This is something that I am sure I will wear to death and my go to jacket for Autumn layered up over a big baggy knit and skinny jeans.

30 October 2016

my top 5 things to do whilst i'm on Brick lane

So East London is one of my favorite places for inspiration and you will often find me coffee in hand taking in the sites, it's a great source of inspiration so I thought I would list my top 5 favorite  things to do when I roam Brick Lane. There are obviously so many things to do in the area but these are a couple of things i really enjoy.

1- I adore walking around the area and seeing the graffiti that changes on a daily basis along the street, you can often see new pieces being done on the street themselves. When I was at Camberwell studying my foundation degree I based my final project on graffiti and the layers of band posters you find pasted to the walls along these streets.

2. It is one of my top places to shoot my outfit photos because I feel the area really reflects my style and personality, Brick Lane has a lot of streets leading off it which is great for shooting interesting outfit photos, I got to snap these of the lovely tote bags for Moose Fest which is a charity festival just outside of London next weekend 5th November.

3 - I very much enjoy drinking coffee in any form so stopping by Kahaila and grabbing a Latte which is a charity run Cafe that sells ethically sourced coffee, I can also say they're cakes are to die for. There are plenty of wonderful independant coffee shops on Brick Lane and the surrounding area.

4 - Vintage shopping, the Brick Lane area has some fab vintage shops, there are a lot that are over priced but there are some great pieces to be found if you have a good browse, Beyond Retro can be found just off Brick lane, Rokit on Brick Lane and Plenty more. 

5 - Eating on Brick Lane is a must, you have the Original Bagel shops that sell rainbow bagels and cream cheese and salmon bagels by the hundred,  Just off Brick Lane there is Pizza East that do fab pizza and in the basement a vintage photo booth awaits where you can pay by card.
Brick Lane is famous for its Indian cuisine and a total must. Also at the weekend the streets are filled with wonderful food Markets.

Zara Rolling stones T-shirt | boohoo jeans | Topshop Western boots | T K Maxx studden bag | Moose Fest Tote | Zara Faux leather jacket

28 October 2016

Lets talk about mental health during bereavement

Taboo still? most defiantly, I have written a few times about the state of my mental health I'm often pretty open about the fact I have suffered in the past with depression and anxiety and it does occasionally stop me from doing things and seeing myself in a positive light. But I wanted to talk about dealing with mental health issues whilst living with a bereavement. I make no bones about the fact the loss of my Mother has ripped my world apart, so today after living with the loss of my mum I plucked up the courage to speak to my GP about getting bereavement counseling, this was something I was offered back when my mother first died, but I consciously decided I needed to absorb in my own time what had just happened. 

The one person I would openly talk to about my depressive bouts and low moments was my mother come rain or shine she was the one that would absorb my angst and stress, often being the harsh and blunt voice of truth reminding me so many times how wonderful I am, now when that comfort blanket had been whipped away I knew I had to tread lightly with how I thought about myself and this very abrupt situation I found myself in, often going through periods of numbness because not thinking or feeling was the safest option I could muster at the time. But slowly I realised that's probably not the best way to deal with things.

Grief is an odd thing, like everything else it effects everyone differently, people have said to me I'm the strongest person they know and as I seek comfort in knowing this people don't see the struggle of reoccurring nightmare I have most nights of discovering my mothers lifeless body that morning, its this image that truly haunts me, I find myself playing down how awful it was for fear of upsetting people around me and not putting myself first in this situation has made it hard for me to articulate the real issue. I can cope with anything life throws at me but it's the hardest part for me and as I type this it physically hurts my heart, literally hurts and that's when it becomes consuming, now after a year I have realised its the right time to take this awful memory and hard hitting realities and find the courage to talk to someone because anyone coping alone can only do so much for themselves. If by talking to a professional will help lessen the hurt and guilt I feel I will happily take the brunt of being consider a crazy lady if it will help me make progress with myself. Something needs to change and staying the same and thinking the same wont help me or the people around me. 

I have some tremendously supportive friends, a courageous family but I think maybe having someone who's not emotionally attached to me to talk to will help me realise actually this is normal and it's part and parcel of dealing with a very traumatic experience. What I have realised since I first touched on my depression many years ago is how many people suffer alone with it, that's really shit. I have to some extent not spoken up fully about how my experience has effected my mental health. I think over time you learn to develop strategies for dealing with the feelings. So I am really hoping getting to speak to someone will help me realise what I am feeling is ok and natural and hopefully won't last forever. 

If you are personally dealing with any kind of loss or depressive bout or episode, try and find yourself someone to talk to, we need to realise even when we are at our lowest there are people who care enough about us to want to help. Also sometimes we have to be honest with ourselves and realise we aren't coping as well as we think we are and you know what that's ok. It's not weakness it's human nature, things pass but they may pass more bearably if we try to find the courage within ourselves to ask for help. It took me over a year to ask for help, it may prove to not be helpful but I figured it's the next step in dealing with the loss of my mother, people do unfortunately leave us and it's how we deal with the loss that determines where we head in this life, you can let it consume you, you can carry it with and be angry at the world or  you could realise it's sadly part of life and let it make you stronger. 

We must remember to be especially kind to ourselves during this period, mental health is hard enough to deal with at the best of times, self care and self love are so vital in helping people get through such hard periods, so tell yourself you're strong enough even sometimes when it feels like the easiest option is to fall apart.

27 October 2016

House of hackney X Eastpak

When I am out and about in London I always carry with me pretty much everything, sketchbook, art  material, reading books and the odd spare item of clothes. So when I spotted this House of Hackey collaboration with Eastpak. Leopard print is pretty big at the moment so this bag really goes with all the minimal look I am loving at the moment. 

Yesterday I ventured around London with the lovely Lauren and we went for lunch and had a good old catch up, which was really lovely, I am a little bit obsessed at the moment with off the shoulder jumpers this one I snapped up from Boohoo and I now can't find the black version! It's perfect for winter if you wanna should a little bit of that left over summer tan.

The bag itself is the largest back pack I own at 24L and I just love the fact I can throw anything in it and it fits, so it's pretty fab for an unorganised freelancer. As someone who is only five foot back packs always make me feel like a child off on a school trip, but I think this one has the element of cool chic because of the design, as a limited edition back pack I think they have done really well combining the two companies to create such lovely pieces, I do think this one really reflects my style well.

24 October 2016

Illustrated Halloween treats from The Biscuiteers

Anyone that knows me knows I am a sucker for iced biscuits to be honest I have the worst sweet tooth ever so having the opportunity to illustrate these sweet treats from The Biscuiteers was a dream come true. They tasted amazing, to the point it only took me like three days to eat them all! They come in a wonderful little skull candy tip which has now doubled up as a paint tin for all my Gouache paints. These are pretty decadent Halloween treats and would make for really fun gifts for people. 
How cute are all the goodies? I literally want them all oh my they were so tasty!

21 October 2016

A mini trip to Mousehole

Where I was based in Cornwall for the week was near Mousehole one of my favorite quaint little seaside villages, but I would recommend avoiding in the summer as it heaves with tourists, so going out of season can be a lot nicer, Me and Rob wandered around the little village, yep you find me once again in my trust Gazelle's and leather jacket, it's just the perfect combination for comfort. 

The weather has been pretty fab, it only rained once and it only lasted a few moments so I feel pretty lucky, I hadn't been back in Cornwall for a while, I graduated from Falmouth University back in 2010 so it was nice to have a break away for a bit. My favourite thing to do is fine a nice coffee shop and just enjoy the view. 

I would recommend Mousehole for the Mousehole Harbour lights, it has a wonderful famous story about a fisher man and his cat and I have fallen a little bit in love with cats since I stayed down here stay tuned for that post.

20 October 2016

Cornish adventures in my new boots

So I have been down in Cornwall the last few days and I am literally the worst at packing, I can't do it without packing a million items of clothing that I will never wear. I fell a little bit in love with these boots from Dune for Debenhams  I wanted a pair of slightly higher western style boots and these are perfect, they add a little elegance to my outfit which is always great but maybe not for climbing over rocks on the rugged coast.  Most of what I have worn over the last few days has been pretty simple I am never one to get dressed up to stuff my face with fish and chips.

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