Its amazing how we don't see it and then we catch a glimpse of it, in the above photo id forgotten that sometimes I can look like my mother in profile, it was for a brief moment that I scarcely recognised my own face, strangely comforting and heartbreakingly sad. But it made me realise a few things, that me and my mother are still connected even though she isn't here in person anymore she's still here, present in me, that I'm pretty lucky to look like her and I'm rather glad my double chin isn't as big as it use to be ha!
I am slowly making conscious choices to be less angry when I now think of my mums passing, my ability to create has help focus those negative thoughts, I've managed to fill my space now with things that keep me lifted and focused. My new work has been a blessing and proven to be one of my best sellers. I have had a lot of people ask me where the new style has come from and if i'm honest I have always drawn like this just kept it hidden in the depth of my sketchbook as I deemed it less commercial but i'm so pleased with the response and you can buy them from my studio shop with 10% off till Saturday with the code yoyo16
Since I have been creating pieces of work that have been inspired by my childhood love or animals and plants I have felt far more connected to my mother then I had in previous months, maybe its the chance to be a relaxed and calm but whatever it is its working.