I often lay on my bed and watch the sunset through my window, i have taken to spending a lot of time on my own recently pouring myself into my work and orders. I think it is my coping mechanism for when i am stressed or nervous. I had forgotten how important the small things in my life are, i found i had taken the smallest things for granted, the fast pace of living at home and in london, have changed me.
Since now i travel on my own a lot, i have taken to looking at the clouds and people i walk past, now that the old tree at the top of my road has had all its branches cut down, i can see the tops of the cottages at the start of my road and the shape of the other trees that make up the avenue. I pretty much enjoy the things other people don’t see. I think thats what i have missed about me. Now i don’t have to care about missing someone, my time isn’t engulfed in the selfish absorbing ways that i had pushed onto me, i can be myself. I am finally feeling free again.
I have had wonderful support recently from people on here and on twitter, its great to know that there are so many people with such wonderful and gracious kind words, who are there to extend help without having to know the details, i promise you i haven’t lost my mind, after a long day i have realized, that i have taken myself for granted and that i am a lot stronger then i thought i was two months ago. I wanted to thank you all for making this process and path easier and less caught up then i thought it would be.
I wanted to share with you this wonderful song moon river covered by The Honey Trees, take 3 minutes out of your busy day, and just listen….no harm in that.
- breaths, plural1.The physiological process of taking air into the lungs and expelling it again, esp. the ability to breathe easily
- – she paused for breath