breath slow…

I often lay on my bed and watch the sunset through my window, i have taken to spending a lot of time on my own recently pouring myself into my work and orders. I think it is my coping mechanism for when i am stressed or nervous. I had forgotten how important the small things in my life are, i found i had taken the smallest things for granted, the fast pace of living at home and in london, have changed me.

Since now i travel on my own a lot, i have taken to looking at the clouds and people i walk past, now that the old tree at the top of my road has had all its branches cut down, i can see the tops of the cottages at the start of my road and the shape of the other trees that make up the avenue. I pretty much enjoy the things other people don’t see. I think thats what i have missed about me. Now i don’t have to care about missing someone, my time isn’t engulfed in the selfish absorbing ways that i had pushed onto me, i can be myself. I am finally feeling free again.

I have had wonderful support recently from people on here and on twitter, its great to know that there are so many people with such wonderful and gracious kind words, who are there to extend help without having to know the details, i promise you i haven’t lost my mind, after a long day i have realized, that i have taken myself for granted and that i am a lot stronger then i thought i was two months ago.  I wanted to thank you all for making this process and path easier and less caught up then i thought it would be.
I wanted to share with you this wonderful song moon river covered by The Honey Trees, take 3 minutes out of your busy day, and just listen….no harm in that.

breath

    noun /breTH

    breaths, plural1.The physiological process of taking air into the lungs and expelling it again, esp. the ability to breathe easily

  • – she paused for breath





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      11 Comments

      1. May 29, 2011 / 8:59 pm

        This is a lovely post. I love what you wrote about being on your own and noticing things others don't see. I am trying to find myself at the moment, and finally be who I want to be. Lovely, inspiring words Ella! xoxo

      2. May 29, 2011 / 9:01 pm

        hey katie thank you
        i was a bit worried about writing it, was a bit afraid people might think i have lost my mind hehe, being alone is good sometimes make you appreciate alot, i hope you are ok ? and if you ever need to talk you know where i am 🙂 🙂 chin up pickle xxxxxx

      3. May 29, 2011 / 9:04 pm

        Such a lovely and inspiring post Ella :)I can relate to what you are saying too x

      4. May 29, 2011 / 9:06 pm

        I think this is my favourite post by you sweetie because it explained everything so perfectly. So many people miss out on the best things in life because they're too busy holding a flame for things that bring them no hope/too anxious to see them. I think you're one of the loveliest ladies in the world.

      5. May 29, 2011 / 9:22 pm

        this is a great post Ella, it shows how you really feel..I love spend time on my own too and sometimes i like it but sometimes i feel lonely. so it's always good to have people there for you! like you said on here and twitter..I'm glad we've helped in some way and that you are feeling better about your self. your truly amazing i hope you know that, and i think your one of the nicest people..I can certainly call you a friend 🙂
        xxxx

      6. May 30, 2011 / 12:25 am

        Thank you for this post it was very inspiring. I love to spend time on my own. Sometimes I wait till my partner goes to bed to have a little me time. I love spending every second of my day with him, but I also enjoy my own company, and I always have. I wouldn't say that I get many opportunities to 'stop and smell the roses' so to speak, but I find that carrying a camera around with me helps.
        Also thank you for sharing this song, her voice is amazing and very unique.
        x

      7. May 30, 2011 / 8:39 am

        you're too cute you are!
        love those photos and your writing, beautiful and I can totally relate 🙂 x

      8. May 30, 2011 / 7:56 pm

        This post put a big smile on my face 🙂 really very lovely Ella

        N xxxxx

        styletwigs

      9. May 30, 2011 / 10:43 pm

        Such an honest and beautifully written post, and I too can relate <3

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