Todays blog post comes to you from the depths of my bedroom as i am trying to get rid of old clothes, clothes i don’t wear and clothes that have out grown me. This blog has been a great place for me to gain confidence, also seeing other bloggers wearing wonderful and wacky outfits.
As i was going through my old clothes, which hold a lot of sentimental value( i don’t often buy alot of clothes but when i do i actually have to fall in love with that item). I was going through some pieces, and they actually made me quite upset, i don’t often share with people problems i have had with my weight or the fact i wont wear trousers outside the house. If i am honest right now is the happiest i have been in a long time with the way i look, it has taken me a good 9 months to gain this confidence back. In 2010 i was so ill with asthma and lung problems that i think i gain around 2 stone, from the sheer fact that i was stressed with uni, home life and the fact that i love chocolate, this came to a massive realization when my ex turned around to me and said (after not seeing me for 4 months) “i think you have got really fat” believe me at that moment in time i have never felt so much hate for 1 person, no one has ever directly said that to me and you know what 2 weeks later that relationship was over but words can scar immensely. I stopped wearing trousers and i only ever wore tights/leggings and dressers because i thought i looked like a whale in trousers. But now i feel its safe to go back to jeans and trousers hehe
I am still a size 12-14 but i am happy, mainly for work i wear dresses and tights but today i thought lets wear trousers and a nice top. Sometimes is the simplest thing that can cheer you up and make you grateful. But one thing i have learnt from the last 9 months…i still love chocolate.