I recently watch a program on the bbc called “what artists do all day” and there was this one artist on there i think her name was cornelia parker, and she talked about having a skill that was a blessing a gift, that she’s been let into something and to be grateful for it. I have been feeling a lot like this recently. The more I draw the more I feel like me, and I guess not many people get to truly experience that. That really does make me feel so grateful. Even if the pain of drawing is evident in my swollen hand and battered fingers from the pencil rubbing to the point of bleeding, but that doesn’t matter its the process we have to go through to create something of worth.
It seems to still be my only refuge, my only thinking time, my Only. I spend long hours drawing as it seems to be the only way I de-stress and figure things out, its such a wonderful place to be when the drawing is going right, and late nights sat at my desk with a good historical programme on (total geek) illuminated by my lamp just painting whilst the rest of the house sleeps allows me to just focus on what i’m good at, thats not easy for me to say, I don’t often say I am good at drawing, I think because I am my own worst critique I can’t think of one painting that I have truly been happy with, I think its my Pursuit of happiness.
You guys have been so wonderfully support recently that I think it has given a great boost of confidence to just keep going. Even though my days recently have been filled with stressful uncertainty, it has been a wonderful escape, focusing on something simple and beautiful and really when you think about it what more can you ask from life?
I am currently painting cities that I have been to, places that I’ve never been and may never go, of adventures and people, that hopefully those curious among you will buy and display in there house, one day inspiring someone, as they gaze at it, to find that certain building or explore that certain street, I feel that through some intricate detailing in the paintings, that the wonder I get from putting my soul into the art that some how, they find some sort of de-stress and refuge. I find that it is a cycle, and being able to share that with you all is wonderful, I think I have used the word wonderful too many times but who cares?! I certainly don’t and if I am honest it shouldn’t be about that.