I wrote a little post last month about being poorly around August time, it got to the point were I could no longer stomach eating, and every time I ate I was sick and I bloody love my food, so that month was an awful month and if I am honest from that moment, I gained so much respect for food and what I was putting into my body. I am eating healthy to feel better about myself, I figured healthy body healthy mind. Its working!
A few months on from then, I have shed Two and Half stone, it was never intentional, but I made more of a point of only eating fresh fruit, and healthy foods. Since I wrote this blog post about my weight loss back in 2012 I probably gained a few stone a few months after having that photo taken, I just liked stuffing my face with chocolate, biscuits and crisps, I am totally aware that dieting shouldn’t be a yo-yo fad, it has become a lot more of a way of life for me. Which is hard when you’ve been living with brothers that eat like horses and can eat what ever they like and still be awesome!
I have stopped eating crisps and chocolate, because as I am the kind of person that has no self control when it comes to sweet junk food I have cut it out completely, I know this isn’t ideal for everyone and a lot of people will say you shouldn’t deny yourself something, but for me it is the only way.
So to replace my love of sweet food, I now I snack on fruit, where I once replaced milk chocolate with dark chocolate I no longer can due to my allergies. My biggest treat is a good old cuppa tea, I have started drinking Decaf as I found I was getting a lot more headaches due to the amount of caffeine and I always have 2 sugars in my tea it can’t be helped! I also try my best not to eat to much bread as it doesn’t agree with me, but every now and again won’t hurt unless you are crushed to death by a giant loaf in Wenzels I can forgive myself!
For meal times, I eat normally. When I was poorly in August I couldn’t stomach eating meat, so I only occasionally eat steak to keep my iron in take up and as we have quite a few allotments there are always vegetables for nearly every meal. I try my best now to eat breakfast as it often keeps me going at the start of the day. I have listed what I normally eat on a normal working day. ( obviously with variety)
Bran-flakes with Banana
Huntsman chicken with a tomato sauce,
roasted pumpkin seeds, vegetables and olives
Home made soup and bread
strawberries and sliced banana
I drink as much water as I can as well.
I really don’t bother counting calories, as for me that’s a bit controlling I tried that before and it just didn’t work for me, I try to listen to how my body feels, I like to see food as fuel helping me keep going. So if i know its not going to have a benefit being in my body I wont bother eating it. Sometimes I do get the urge to eat chocolate but not having eaten it for nearly 12 weeks you slowly learn to replace it with other things. On a Saturday I sometimes treat myself to gummy sweets as I do love a good treat. Its nice to have a balance when it comes to good and bad.
I am still fluctuating between a size 16- 12 depending on where I shop and what I am wearing due to my boobs and hips. But I guess I should be grateful for those. I have shared more over on my instagram over at _ellamasters_ you can see more.
Right now, my next step to go with my healthy eating is my exercise regime, I do regular yoga, squats and core muscle work outs. I am hoping to start doing the insanity work out, as my sisters wedding is in December and we all want to look our best!
I decided to not look at others anymore and care that they were the perfect size, because lets face facts i’m never going to be a size 6 and weigh 8 stone unless i cut a few limbs off. I just decided that this is what I have been given and to embrace it, but at the same time respect my body and what I was stuffing my face with.
I truly never thought I would see a day when I looked in the mirror and liked what I saw, but yesterday morning that moment happened. Its only taken me what feels like a life time to achieve that, before it was to impress a boy, or to fit in at school but that stark moment of being stood in the mirror with only your underwear on and realize that yeah, i kinda love who I see, this weight loss probably won’t last forever and thats ok, its about being comfortable and happy with yourself. I never thought I would see the day when I didn’t have a double chin, that was one of my biggest hates about myself…but with a little less chocolate consumption and a healthier look at myself its gone. I think at times we can be our own worst critic and we don’t see what others may see in us, but its good sometimes to take a step back and really love yourself for who you are not hate yourself for someone you aren’t.
By the way this isn’t me writing a blog post saying larger isn’t beautiful and oh my gosh I want to be skinny, that’s really not me, I debated with myself about sharing my little story. I am still a size 16-12. I just wanted to share my reasons and what I have eaten to help me along the way, I hope you can take some positives from this.
If you have any questions you can drop me a little comment.