Life is that life, it’s as long as it will be, I’ve gone through some rather tough times as of recent nothing majorly life threatening but have been tough on my skin, my mind and my confidence, I will admit it, it has been masked by my furious appetite to work. It’s what I love to do but it is subsequently acting as a comfort blanket for dealing with life and things that I’ve have popped in the “I’ll do that tomorrow” box.
A note slipped under my bedroom door early one morning from my mother, (yep 27 still living at home damn you london house prices) but anyway the note read ” I know the last few weeks haven’t been easy – but you will go onto do great things love mum x” At that point I felt a mix of guilt and hope, guilt that my mum had picked up on the fact that I wasn’t happy and hope that someone had more faith in myself then I did. After my 27th birthday and the weeks leading up to it, had made me realise I have become a person I’m not happy with. Yep I’ve lost weight but I don’t feel healthy, Yep I’ve been running but I don’t feel energised, I no longer enjoy things I use to, riddled with anxiety and self doubt, I have decided to start a fresh capture.
Whilst running at the gym I have been using youtube like a podcast and listening to interviews with Kris Carr if you have no idea who she is, she’s pretty wonderful, she was diagnosed with incurable/inoperable cancer 13 years ago and decided to change her life, through what she put in her body, how she thought about life and by doing great things, she is an inspiration. It has helped reaffirm to me that what we put in our bodies is so important, important in giving us a core to help our well being and just as important to help our mind. I want to help myself and hopefully along the journey help others by keeping a diary here on this blog of my well being journey. It won’t only be about food, Illustrated Ella is a lifestyle blog and with that I want to share my life, art, food and well being.
So I have a little plot of land thanks to my parents owning a few allotments and with the help of a few of my veggie/vegan friends I hope to nourish my soul so the bouts of depression are less and my M.E. is stabilized more, I no longer want to rely on coffee for an energy boost or comfort eat rubbish. I will be cutting out meat and focusing on a more plant based diet. I hope to show you also that art to me is my meditation, were I will teach techniques of focusing and mindfulness so you can cope with things comfortably.
I hope to share with you my adventures to find my new self, you will be able to follow the ways I stay positive, paint and nourish my way to happiness, with email newsletters, recipes, paint classes and illustrations.